expose my soul

Even as my mind drifts, and I can't seem to focus;
You come to mind, in slow, and subtle drifts.
You come in slow blinks, smiles, memories
Always etched in my mind, even as I am unfocused.
So tell me, life, what is this?
Tell me, experience, what could this mean?
These thoughts of you, interrupting nothing
Yet leaving the impression of everything.
It's not unwelcome, and it's not too confusing
It's just surprising, in a plesant and satisfactory way.


Long time no update. First thing is first: TOOL was amazing, as expected. I must go onto their online site and see the images they have of the portland show. I bought a $70 sweatshirt but it was worth it. Also, I went snowboarding for the first time this last Friday, at Mt. Hood Meadows. It was SO much fun, despite being ridiculously sore in my arms for the next two to three days. I took their $40 deal: boot/board/bindings rental, 2-hour lesson and buttercup ski lift pass. Before my lesson I fucked around on the board for about 3 hours with the help of a snowboard lover. So when I finally went to the lesson I got the hang of things pretty quickly! Maybe on my third day I will be able to safely ski down the big slopes, but even as I say that thinking about it terrifies me.

I have yet to start much less finish my christmas shopping. My parents said: no presents this year, but my mum can never contain herself so there always are. I feel like I've been spending so much money lately, what with booze, snow-related activities and items, and now christmas, I am sort of panicking about school money. I MUST start checking out schools and putting in applications for the 2008-2009 school year, most likely away from Clark.

Anyways, all around things are looking very well for me. My heart is satisfied and I am surprised and pleased almost on a daily basis. Who would've thought.

any good book recommendations?